Tuesday, July 07, 2009


There are some reasons why I am not posting here these days. I think I feel mentally dried out. I feel tired of tracking a total stranger, and listening in to his life as if he has no right to privacy. Sometimes I feel like a stalker. I don’t know where I’m at with this.

I had some news this afternoon that makes everything seem so damn trivial.

My best friend, Terry, committed suicide last night. A policeman came to my home and asked me a lot of questions about him, and I knew. I knew something really bad had happened. The officer didn’t want to tell me what it was, but finally he put me in contact with the police in Florida, which is where Terry was living.

He shot himself. I can almost see it. My heart is absolutely breaking into five million pieces. I feel like dust. I am, not a religious person, but I know many of you are. I think he was to some extent. So if you have a minute, just say a kind word for him. He would like that, and I would be grateful.



dramalover said...

I am saying many kind words for Terry and you. I know now there isn't anything that seems important or relevant but time is a good thing. It dulls the ache - if only the ache would go away - it doesn't. Stay strong and remember all the wonderful things you were to each other. Never feel like a stalker. Oh Ji Ho brings joy and fantasy to so many of us and by sharing your thoughts and photos and comments, you bring bring sunshine into more lives than you know. Be strong. We'll all wait for you.

Hyacinth said...

Dear Drama Lover,
Your words are balm for my torn up soul. I feel like a wounded beast struggling to get up.

Thank you for your dear good heart.

Aiko said...

Please accept my deepest condolences on your friend's passing. Think about all of the good times you shared with your friend. As far feeling like you are a stalker....don't. Zio and all of the other celebrities must rely on their fans to survive. It's so competitive in the entertainment world...you can be on top with one drama and a "has been" if your next drama is a flop. Zio's drama "Single Daddy in Love" did not do well in the ratings but I think it's thanks to his Korean and foreign fans he has survived....and now doing very well with the success of "Queen of Housewives". I hope you'll continue posting after your heart has healed.

Anonymous said...

i droped here at your pages because of ji ho.

so i've found you met some terrible story about your friend. i want to say sorry about that and i hope he'll rest in peace.

and i do hope times will cheer you up. and there is something i wanna say, we have rights to love or crazy for someone. especially, he is an actor, you know, don't think so much about that. he brings us joys, he's cute or whatever. you didn't do anything wrong, ok?

be strong ;)

Anonymous said...

I feel really bad about what you had been through. Of course, it is definitely much closer at heart at the tragic passing away of a friend, and I know you must have a tough time going over all these. I will pray for you. I can tell at this moment, you may feel it's meaningless to keep posted of Oh's trivials, but I would like to thank you for all that you've done on this blog and really everything here.


Anonymous said...

hi , i love you oh ji ho


hope you have very good times in your life
and just one thing remmeber me :D

Anonymous said...

Oh my.

I doubt few if any words can console you for such a loss, so I'll just say what comes to mind.

If following Oh Ji-Ho and his works is part of what made you happy all these years, then that is exactly what Terry would want you to continue to do. That's what good friends do - they wish the best for the other. And in that sense, your blog is not trivial. It's actually extremely important and it will continue to be important, as long as it makes you happy.

And don't be too sad. He's watching, and waiting. The distance is only temporary, and the memories you share with him are forever. He's still with you - and of course, you'll see him again soon.

With my deepest condolences,


saeed said...

i love you

Bahar said...

Hi, I cried tonight for Jang Chel Su. I don't know why. Perhaps I had the same past days..... I don't know.
And aboutyour post:
I think the life is going to be in the optimum condition.don't worry. smile!

ohjioh fans said...

im so sorry 4 terry
but im here to ask sth..is this ohjioh personal blog? and these writings are his writings??

nasimesabz said...

Your web is very well.
Im from Iran and I love ji ho so much.

bye bye

Hyacinth said...

Thank you all for caring, and for your encouragement.

I am blessed by your presence in my life.

With affection,

Anonymous said...

Cheer up! Though its competitive in the entertainment world but you have been around so long. We love watching your dramas. U are a caring person. God will bless you.

Anonymous said...

Appreciate your honesty and care for your friend. Don't be sad. God will bless you with another good friend.

SHAHRZAD said...

i kiss jong chul soo